I am loved!

Today I taught my first lesson as an official Relief Society teacher. This has been a tough thing for me because I don't feel like I'm very good with words sometimes and my head goes blank. My first time teaching as a substitute felt awful. There was a point where my mind when completely empty and no words would come out. I couldn't speak and I was just frozen in fear. It felt like it went on for about 5 minutes until the Relief Society President finally saved me by saying something. Since then, I've had a little anxiety about the ability to. I also don't feel like I've been doing everything in my life the way I should in order to have the Spirit work through me like I need it to when I'm teaching. Well, in preparation for this lesson today, I prayed that despite my shortcomings and even stupidity at times, the Spirit would be in the room and the girls would be able to feel it. I prayed that I wouldn't be a detraction from it. Well, it's amazing how Heavenly Father can answer a simple prayer with such power even when I don't feel I deserve it. I felt His Spirit in that room today so strongly. The girls participated and we had a wonderful discussion about adversity and being of good cheer through it. I wish I could explain or describe what is in my heart and how incredibly grateful I feel for this gift. I needed it so badly. I love that even two hours later, inside of me feels like I am still in that room. I'm so thankful to have the relationship that I do with those girls. I know that if I feel like I am less than capable, they'll still love me and won't judge too harshly. I am so incredibly loved by my Father. I'm thankful that He taught me today. I pray that I'll be able to live up to the responsibility (and blessing) that He's given me. Mmmmm......I just feel SO good right now!! :)