So, I found out I was pregnant in June. We didn't want to announce it publicly until later. It was about 20 weeks. That was also when these pics were taken. I don't know why I've been hesitant to write things down about how things have been, but I've been putting it off for some reason. Now I'll probably forget everything I intended to remember.
June 9th, I was really emotional and just completely broke down sobbing into my pillow for no reason whatsoever. Rob asked if I'd taken a pregnancy test recently. I told him that it'd been a few weeks (taking pregnancy tests wasn't that uncommon since I'm so irregular). I decided to take one in the morning (June 10th). It was a Sunday morning and for some reason, I didn't sleep in. I woke up really early. Went and took the test and pretty immediately, it indicated positive. I said out loud, "Really? Really? I mean, really?" I think I may have pinched myself a little because of the dreams I'd had before. Then I went back into the bedroom and excitedly woke Rob up (which I knew was risky because he doesn't like being woken up). I said, "Guess what! I slept through the night!!" I really was excited about that because I hadn't for a few weeks before that. Rob gave me a look that pretty much told me I was in trouble if that was the only reason I was waking him up. Then I showed him the test. I kept repeating, "Now what do I do? I don't know what to do now." He stopped me and said something like, "Now you come here," and he opened his arms up to me. It was a sweet moment.
I'm just over 26 weeks now. We're excited, but I think that I'll have a cautious excitement until baby is here. I honestly didn't expect for my pregnancy to get this far. I know so many things can go in an unplanned way. I really am happy though. Nervous, scared, but most of the time, pretty calm. That's a little strange for me. But I've tried to keep things as calm as possible for the most part. I don't want stress to be the reason if something goes wrong.
There is one thing that I will say about this pregnancy. Although it isn't easy, I think I was expecting to feel awful the whole time. It hasn't been nearly as bad as I expected it to be. I think the fact that I've been able to relax, breathe, and drink lots of water has really helped.
Some of the things I want to remember that surprised me:
I was so determined to eat healthy in the beginning. But I soon found out that it wasn't going to work. The first trimester, I couldn't eat veggies. I tried. It didn't work. I did force a V8 down most days so that I would get some goodness in me. Most of the time, I just didn't want to eat at all. Any type of food was gross. That changed in the beginning of my 2nd trimester when I went to Texas. My appetite came back with a vengence. Tex-Mex food is SOOO good! These days, I can eat more than I could before, but if I could get away with not eating, I totally would.
I didn't expect to gag every time I brushed my teeth. I'd never heard about that one before. After awhile of that, I got some kids toothpaste that was strawberry flavored. It helped a lot.
I expected to throw up in the first trimester. I didn't. A lot of times I really wish I would have, but my body just wouldn't do it. Painful dry heaves was all I got. I was nauseated pretty consistently. The first time something actually came up, it surprised me. It was on the way home from Vernal at a rest stop. I was about 18 weeks. It's happened just about 2 or 3 times since. I do count myself lucky.
I can't remember when it was, but I had some vertigo. It took me by surprise because the room would start to spin even though I was just switching from my left side to my right in bed. There were a couple times that it happened when I was completely still. I was thankful that nausea didn't come with it. Without feeling sick, the vertigo just felt like a crazy amusement park ride. :) Only lasted 10 seconds or so each time.
I also thought that not being able to sleep through the night only came AFTER the baby came. I was wrong on that. My body started waking me up several times during the night when I first became pregnant, before I even knew I was. I have been able to adjust for the most part. I'm not a napper, and so taking naps during the day was something I had to get used to. Still not into it completely, but I am getting better. I learn from Rob. He's a GREAT napper. :)
I decided I'd take a pregnancy pic so that I could at least see where I was at. I thought I looked a lot more pregnant until I saw this picture. This is at 20 weeks. I might take another at 30. We'll see.
These are from my anatomy ultrasound. I thought I'd get a cute little profile that I've seen others get so many times. Nope. This kid just wanted to look our way the whole time. See that mischievous grin?
We got a cute little feet pic. It's a little hard to see, but the toes are pointing down with the heels up farther.
Up until the ultrasound, I was convinced I was having a girl because of certain experiences I've had in the past. I won't go into them because they're sacred to me, but I was very looking forward to the sparkly shoes, and princess stuff, and pink, etc. It took me a couple days to really believe that I was having a boy. Rob handled my little bit of sadness quite well. I'm good with it now. A few weeks before we found out, I realized I was getting too set on a girl in my head. I didn't want to be disappointed. I tried to get things better in my head, but what really helped was a baptism for a couple of the boys in our ward. I'm the pianist in Primary in our ward, and so I get to attend them when they happen. When I listened to the confirmations and the blessings and thing things that were ahead for them and what good boys they were, it calmed me about having a boy. Also, similar to that experience, last night I was able to attend a Priesthood Preview which is a little preparation for the boys in Primary that will be turning 12 and receiving the Priesthood the next year. Now, I'm emotional anyway, but I pretty much bawled through the whole thing thinking about my boy and what was in store for him and how, as his mom, to prepare him, etc, etc. It was a very touching night.
Well, I didn't expect this post to be so long, but I guess that's what happens after keeping things inside for awhile. I feel very lucky and blessed to have this experience. I hope that none of it came across as complaining, because wasn't intended that way. It's just observance of things that are different than I thought. I wanted to remember these things. I'm very aware of how lucky I am.
Due date is February 17th. It's going to come fast with the holidays being right here upon us. I hope I do okay. :)
Thanks for reading. It was mostly for me. I hope I didn't go into too annoying or disgusting detail. Love you all!
